I had a dream about her/him/you…

I had a dream about a friend, more of an acquaintance that I’m not really into at all. It was a weird and intimate dream and I woke up feeling inappropriate. I dream about Harry Styles more than a little and I wake up from those dreams wishing I could go back to sleep. It just felt so different when it was an actual person in my life. Double standards, eh?  I was sitting in class with the acquaintance/friend the morning after  and while he was talking I zoned out and felt a little sick thinking  about how I involuntarily dreamt about him. I felt like I’d violated him.

I’ve had friends tell me that they don’t like to hear about other people’s dreams. Especially ones where they don’t feature at all. Some days I understand where they’re coming from but most days I really don’t. When people tell me their dreams they’re revealing the inner workings of their mind and why wouldn’t I be interested in a thing like that? There are some dreams though that you just have to keep to yourself.

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Rhetorical Questions: Examining My Own Ethics

“A man without ethics is a wild beast loosed upon this world”

- Albert Camus

I had a really intense class on ethics a few days ago, where we were presented with a series of ethical hypotheticals and I did not offer up a single comment the whole time because I was shell-shocked. Shell-shocked by how completely unaware I am of my own ethical code. Would I kill a person to save three others? Would I conduct business with a person if their values weren’t in accordance with my own? I need to find my answers to these questions, or at least discover my ethical approach to guide me in answering these questions. If I’m not confident in my ethics, how can I be confident in my conduct and decisions? How can I have faith in myself as a human being?

I sat in class trying to justify my current laissez-faire approach to ethical decision making, isn’t it okay to deal with issues as they arise? Judge the right course of action based on the facts presented to you in different situations? However, the more I thought about it, the more I realised that a person needs a firm grip on the handlebars of the bike that is their personal ethical code. Otherwise, we’ll find it all too easily to let go of them and hit the asphalt at the first sign of trouble.

This site has quite a few interactive “experiments” for you to try out if you’re interested and have some spare time: http://www.philosophyexperiments.com

You Are Jeff By Richard Siken (Excerpt)

You’re in a car with a beautiful boy, and he won’t tell you that he loves you, but he loves you. And you feel like you’ve done something terrible, like robbed a liquor store, or swallowed pills, or shoveled yourself
a grave in the dirt, and you’re tired. You’re in a car with a beautiful boy, and you’re trying not to tell him that you love him, and you’re trying to choke down the feeling, and you’re trembling, but he reaches over and he touches you, like a prayer for which no words exist, and you feel your heart taking root in your body, like you’ve discovered something you don’t even have a name for.

Quick and Vague Book Reviews

So joyous now that my exam season is over! I’ve been starting to read all the books that I’ve been saving up which includes:

1. The Siege and the Storm by Leigh Bardugo

The second book in the Grisha young-adult fantasy series. I didn’t like this one as much as the first book and lost interest during the middle section.  I also find the love interest, Mal, irritating. Like a whiny good guy. The last quarter made up for the small things like this that I found issue with though and I’ll be reading the final instalment soon!

2. We Were Liars by E. Lockhart

When books involve a twist I think that it can create unfair expectations for a reader when the “shocking twist” is constantly mentioned in reviews and on the book itself. This book and its twist were a little overhyped for me and I was hoping the book would be more of a mind bender but it was an intriguing and quick novel overall and not something I expected from Lockhart.

3. Love and Other Perishable Items by Laura Buzo

Aussie fiction! Oi oi oi. I really enjoyed this novel from Buzo. A novel about a 15yo girl who falls in love with her 21yo co-worker at a grocery store. It’s handled considerably tastefully though so that’s okay, this is coming from someone who couldn’t stomach Forbidden by Tabitha Suzuma. Told from the alternating points of view of both characters. It was difficult to read in some parts because it perfectly captured that experience of falling in love in a hopeless situation and being young and naive and a little self-centred. The ending was bittersweet but befitting.

4. Dreams of God & Monsters by Laini Taylor 

Such a wonderful cast of characters, which includes the antagonists who manage to draw such anger from me. Didn’t feel like the ending of a trilogy though, it felt more like the beginning of something more? Wouldn’t say no to a spin-off.

Quick Review: Everything Leads to You by Nina Lacour

THIS BOOK WAS SO SWEET AND GREAT. Quick review here, just wanted to get down my thoughts. I was supposed to save this book for later in the month when I have the time to read but after reading a few pages last night, I couldn’t put it down. Emi is the main character, a young girl who helps design sets for films and gets caught up in romance and a touch of mystery. I loved the parts of the novel that discussed the behind-the-scenes of films, like nothing I’ve ever read before in YA. Emi was queer and I like how it wasn’t treated by the author/the other characters as something ~radical~. The romance aspect of the book was really sweet but wasn’t the main focus of the story. I actually really enjoyed that this story was angst-free.

A+ light read.

i love you wes anderson, no buts

“I love you too but I’m going to mace you in the face!” (The Darjeeling Limited)

“I love you but you don’t know what you’re talking about.” (Moonrise Kingdom)

My favourite lines from both movies. I have yet to watch The Grand Budapest Hotel, but when I do get around to it I will most likely let you know how it made me feel.

Book Review: Angelfall (Minor Spoilers)

Summary from the publisher:

It’s been six weeks since angels of the apocalypse descended to demolish the modern world. Street gangs rule the day while fear and superstition rule the night. When warrior angels fly away with a helpless little girl, her seventeen-year-old sister Penryn will do anything to get her back.

Anything, including making a deal with an enemy angel.

Raffe is a warrior who lies broken and wingless on the street. After eons of fighting his own battles, he finds himself being rescued from a desperate situation by a half-starved teenage girl.

Traveling through a dark and twisted Northern California, they have only each other to rely on for survival. Together, they journey toward the angels’ stronghold in San Francisco where she’ll risk everything to rescue her sister and he’ll put himself at the mercy of his greatest enemies for the chance to be made whole again.

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While I have been reading regularly since January, I haven’t read anything that’s inspired me enough to compel me to write a post about it… Until Angelfall. The first book in what is expected to be a five book series entitled ‘Penryn & The End of Days’. I feel a bit shameful about leaving this book for so long but also glad that I didn’t read it in 2011 when I would have had to wait two years for the sequel, World After.

The world that Ee has created in this novel is excellent, just when I thought I had gotten a firm grip on the state of the world and the direction that the book would take – it took me, the reader, in a completely unexpected direction. The book was devoid of the cheesy declaration of love I expected that would have been wildly out of character, instead there were vicious and repulsive angels, an agnostic angel and cannibals! It was a truly wild ride. Let me say that about halfway through the book I was feeling a bit overwhelmed by the intensity of the book – if you’re a fan of action packed novels then look no further. My problem was that I felt like every time things were starting to work out and Penryn and Raffe were getting to where they wanted to be, something would trip them up. I found it a little frustrating but I understand that that’s the way that novels work and it by the time I was in the last half of the book I couldn’t put it down. The lesson: never abandon your books!

I loved the main character, Penryn. I was so excited to read a female character who knew how to take care of herself (but to a believable extent). If I had to choose a YA heroine to have as a best friend I’d probably pick Penryn. Her thought process was neither inane nor frustrating and she was loyal, the thing that kept her going was her love for her sister which was highly admirable. The secondary characters also really piqued my attention and I hope to read more about the other characters such as Josiah, the albino angel, charismatic Obi, Penryn’s mother and sister as well as Dee and Dum (did anyone else think Weasley twins when they were described as cheeky boy-next-door redheads?!). I also appreciated the slow build of relationship between Penryn and Raffe which still hadn’t fully developed at the conclusion of the novel, leaving me eager for more.

This book is like a breath of fresh air in angel-centric YA fiction. I don’t know if there’s anyone out there who hasn’t read this yet but if you’re looking for a fast-paced dystopian novel akin to The Hunger Games, look no further than Angelfall. If you’re okay with creepy and a dark representation of angels, and you’re looking for a badass heroine then this is the book for you.